Thursday, April 29, 2010

Day 81 - Just a normal day.

Day 35 Maintenance 179.4 LBS
TL: 29.6 lbs
FMW: -2.6 lbs

Still on track! I lost 1.2 lbs just for being a little cautious yesterday. Just a little anyway.

I had rice for breakfast and a pbj for lunch. I made burritos for dinner and only had one. When we were cleaning up later though Charis had left almost half a burrito and couldn't stand for it to go to waste so I ATE it. That habit has got to go. I feel so yucky now. I could have just put it into a zip lock. For shame on me.

Day 80 - And the payment for pizza and coke......

Day 34 Maintenance
180.6 lbs
TL 28.4
FMW: -1.4 lbs

1 pound...and not the British kind. But it was soooo worth it. On to the new plan. TODAY I'm going to be good. That's the plan. PLAN!

Oatmeal for breakfast, and a slice of cheese and some melba for lunch. I also had a slice of bread with some jelly. We had nothing in the cupboards so we got a bag of burgers from Bram's on the way to the grocery store. NEVER grocery shop hungry. I got all we needed for the next couple weeks of HCG and for our loading days this weekend. I can't WAIT!

Wednesday, April 28, 2010

Day 79 - And Payment for the Cake Judging....

Day 33 Maintenance
179.6 lbs
TL: 29.4 lbs
FMW: -2.4 lbs

Well I didn't think there wouldn’t be some consequences for that. It wasn't bad though. I only gained .8 lbs. I’m still under 180. The plan was to be really good today. That was the plan. Yeah...plan.

I had eggs for breakfast and left over chicken, potato salad, and beans for lunch. I snacked on granola too. I'm almost out. Should I make more? wouldn't be gone before I started the VLCD and it's way too tempting. I caved for dinner. I ordered pizza and had three slices. IT WAS A smaller Pizza! Don't judge me! But of course, you can't have pizza without...COKE! Oh sweet nectar from Heaven! Succulent caffeinated bliss! You would think after 79 days without it, it would taste nasty, or too sweet. I'm here to didn't! It was scrumptious in all its carbonated, corn syrup glory! I now know why alcoholics can't have just ONE beer after years of sobriety, or ex-smokers can't just BE around smokers, or ex druggies can't have just one drag. I can't have coke with pizza. BAD MOJO!!!

Tuesday, April 27, 2010

Day 78 - The Payment for eating out and late.....

Day 32 Maintenance
178.8 lbs
TL: 30.2 lbs
FMW: -3.2 lbs

Is AWESOME!!! What do I have to do to gain some weight around here!!! I lost less than this during HCG sometimes. I'm half tempted to put of the HCG this weekend and just see how normal life keeps going......Na!!!! If I'm loosing this much with out HCG, just think how much I'll loose on! Maybe I'll shoot for 40 LBS this time.....Ok…..I'm getting a little greedy.

I had rice for breakfast and a grilled cheese sandwich for lunch. I snacked on granola too. I had rotisserie chicken for dinner with potato salad. THEN....I went to girl scouts and the boy scouts had a son/father cake bake off. They needed judges and there were only two people in the entire building that didn't have connections to the bakers. I selflessly offered my services. It was really fun. I'm glad that I had lost a couple of pounds because I might have been nervous the entire time. The most interesting cake was the kitty litter cake. I was a box with a plastic liner. In the box looked like course sand and turds with a pooper scooper sticking up out of it. It looked like the real thing. We saved it for last to taste! It was actually really good. It was a spice cake completely crumbled up with gram crackers crumbled on top of that. The "turds" were partially melted tootsie rolls!!! HA!

Monday, April 26, 2010

Day 77 - Just another day

Day 31 Maintenance
179.8 lbs
TL: 29.2 lbs
FMW: -2.2 lbs

Nothing but smiles!  Gained .4 lbs. No biggie.

I had eggs for breakfast, a late lunch of granola and snaked on it most of the day.  There was mix up with dinner and crazy stuff (pray for us if you will) and had a Braum's hamburger at 9:30.  Hopefully the working in the garden today will balance out eating so late.  I'll probably pay though.

Saturday, April 24, 2010

Day 76 - Joy 1, Joy 2, Joy 3

Day 30 Maintenance
179.4 lbs
TL: 29.6 lbs
FMW: -2.6 lbs

Joy 4, Joy 5, Joy 6, Joy 7! When I asked my HCG friends what I should do if I went below my ending weight, one friend said, "Count it all Joy!" I'm sitting here bawling and counting my joy. I lost another .8 lbs doing NOTHING. Jon wasn't here to talk to and he's out in the middle of nowhere so I can't get in touch. I called my mom. She thought something was wrong, but I was just so happy. The only times I've ever cried for happiness were when I met Jon, when my children were born, and now. Now I officially weigh less than I have in 10 years. TEN YEARS!!! I was perfectly content with staying at 182 for a month, but this is such an incredible gift! It is a milestone I was going to have to delay. But I get to celebrate it exactly 30 days into maintenance, a time I thought would be difficult and wrought with struggle. It has been a breeze and a blessing. Thank you for sharing it with me!

I ate more granola for breakfast and then spent all morning and afternoon in the yard mowing and FINALLY planting my garden. I didn't come in until around 2 and then had more cornbread skillet for a late lunch and yes...there is still more left. For diner I had a hunk of cheese and the kids had PB&J. I also had a little granola. Pretty good day.

Day 75 - Sweet Mother of....!

Day 29 Maintenance
180.2 lbs
TL: 28.8 lbs
FMW: -1.8 lbs

Sweet mother of......! I don't have much more to say than that. Another low. I'm not supposed to loose anymore than that. I wonder what I should do. I will consult the all knowing HCG yahoo group. They always have the HCG answers.

I had eggs for breakfast, left over skillet cornbread for lunch (man this stuff lasts forever!) and left over beans for diner. I made some more granola because SOMEONE poured a cup of tea into the bag with the old granola. I'm not sure, but I think their name starts with Caedon! Anyway, I ate way too much granola and gave myself a tummy ache. I watched a chick flick with Charis and stayed up late since the Jon and Eythan are on a Boy Scout camping trip.

Friday, April 23, 2010

Day 74 - Back to normal

Day 28 Maintenance
181.0 lbs
TL: 28 lbs
FMW: -1 lb

Still there! I only gained .2 lbs. I'm so sore today from working in my garden last night. I'll say its muscle gain! LOL! Not that it's a huge deal. I just can't get over how easy it has been to keep this weight off. If you look at my weight chart (click on it to the left of the blog!) you can see my body adjusting to the weight. The first couple days after HCG the graph makes some very sharp changes, very drastic ups and downs. Now the pattern is back to a normal, steady up and down, more like waves than cliffs. It is not as sharp as right after HCG.

I had oatmeal for breakfast and left over cornbread skillet for lunch. Eythan came home from a Boy Scout thing and had some chips. I ate a few. I made a big ol' pot of beans (or as we refer to it around here...pork stew) and had a bowl with rice for diner. I crashed on the couch after that because I feel like I'm getting sick. Caedon has been running fever for the last few days and I think he may have passed it along. Yeah.

Thursday, April 22, 2010

Day 73 - I love HCG!!

Day 27 Maintenance
180.8 lbs
TL: 28.2lbs.
FMW: -1.2 lbs

I love this diet. I love what it has done for my body. I love how it is teaching me to eat. I love how easy it is. I love that I'm 1.2 lbs under my goal weight. I love HCG!!!

So Jon's work was having an omelet bar for breakfast this morning. They called me special to see if I could make biscuits. I had to get up extra early to get them started and finished. I went ahead and made some for us and then made a batch of sausage gravy. MMMMM!!! Sausage gravy and biscuits......I'm sorry for those on the VLCD. You can have some in 40 days plus three weeks! I'll make them for you and mail them! I had Charis' left over half a biscuit and gravy for lunch. For dinner I made something new. It's called a Cornbread skillet meal. It was SOOOO GOOOD! It was an all in one thing. It took no time at all and it was completely homemade! You brown a lb of hamburger, and then mix it in with a can of diced tomatoes, two tablespoons of flour and two cups of your choice of veggies. I chose onions and celery because that's what I had, but you could use anything you like. You also put in some spices, a tablespoon each of garlic powder and chili powder, and then a little salt. You also make your corn bread. There really is no point in buying a mix. It's easy! One cup each of flour, milk and cornmeal, 1/4 cup each of sugar and oil, two eggs, and a tablespoon of baking powder. For the meal you put half the cornbread mix in the cast iron skillet you cooked the meat in. (You could also use any kind of baking dish if you don't have cast iron. But the cast iron skillet makes it look so cool!) Then you spread the meat mixture on and put cheese on top of it, any cheese you want! Then you put the rest of the corn bread mixture on and cook it for 35 minutes in a 350 oven. AWESOME! Add a salad and you’re done with dinner. I had a couple spoonfuls around 10 while I was putting up the leftovers. I'm sure that will affect my weight in the morning some.

Tuesday, April 20, 2010

Day 72 - I've reached new lows....

Day 26 Maintenaince
180.8 lbs
TL: 28.2 lbs
FMW: -1.2 lbs

In totally a good way! Look what one day of being good got me. The scales finally hit the elusive 180's. I lost 1.6lbs just being a little careful. Of course not being at home put a damper in my goodness. I had egos for breakfast and my Nana made hamburger helper, potatoes, and green beans. We headed home after that and then my car broke down 30 min from home! Ugh. Jon came to my rescue and by the time I got home I just wanted to eat. We had Taco Bell. I ate a taco and a bean burrito. Oh well. I'm tired and grumpy from driving for 3 hours then being stuck on the highway for another hour. Tomorrow will be a better day.

Day 71 - You knew it was coming......

Day 25 Maintenance
182.4 lbs
TL: 26.6 lbs
FMW: +.4 lbs

We knew it was coming...I'm up over a pound today. It was just the motivation I needed to get my act in order...mostly. For breakfast I had eggs with cheese. Then we jumped in the car and drove to Dallas. My mom took us out for lunch at Ton's Mongolian Grill. If you have never been to a Mongolian grill it's a pretty neat place. It's like a salad bar with meat and veggies and seasonings and stuff. You pick what you want and then they stir fry it on a giant grill. I did really good. I picked all meat and veggies and no carbs! Go me! Then they brought us out a bowl of ice cream. I took two bites then pushed it away. If I was going to cheat it was going to be worth it and THAT ice cream was not worth the calories! Then I went to my sisters. I wasn't going to eat but they had hummus and I'd never had good hummus. I wound up having hummus and whole grain chips for dinner. YUM! Today was a good day.

Day 70 - Learning Curve

Day 24 Maintenance
181.2 lbs
TL: 27.8 lbs
FMW: -.8 lbs

Hmmm. I'll take it. I'm still waiting for the other shoe to drop. I just haven't been good to my body this last week. I'm actually ashamed of what I've put into it. Of hasn't stopped from eating CHOCOLATE yesterday and cookies the day before! And it didn't stop me from having Cinnamon rolls for breakfast. Store bought cinnamon rolls at that! They really weren’t worth it. I had brisket, mashed potatoes, and carrots with sweet tea for lunch. THAT was worth it. For dinner we got a bag of burgers from Braum's. I ate one and wished I hadn't. It messed me up. Why haven't I learned?! Tomorrow must be a better day. I just don't feel as well when I put this crap in my body.

Sunday, April 18, 2010

Day 69 - How much do you weigh....on the moon?

Day 23 Maintenance

We spent last night at the science museum. I was bummed that I wasn't going to get to weigh before breakfast, but as I was headed to the bathrooms, low and behold there were scales! Of course I realized quickly that I wasn't going to be able to weigh naked in the middle of the museum so my exhilaration was short lived. I stepped on the scales and waited for them to spin to a stop. It read 29 lbs 3 oz. What? Then I looked at the sign above the scales. "How much do you weigh on the moon?" LOL! Well I know how much I weigh on the moon at least. I ate the only breakfast available at 6 am in the museum. I had chocolate rice crispies with milk. I got home and weighed and it said 182.4. Not bad. I crashed and got up at noon, went to the bathroom and weighed again. It said 181.2. I upped it a little on weight chart and just said I weighed 181.4. We'll find out the real damage tomorrow. I had left over home made pizza for lunch and a chocolate lava cake! Then we went to the dollar movies and saw Avatar. When we got home Jon made chicken fried rice. I had a little and some more lava cake. Then me and Charis went up stairs and ate the rest of the cool whip out of the bowl with giant spoons. I think I will suffer. There can not be a good out come for my bad food behavior......unless I move to the moon.

Saturday, April 17, 2010

Day 68 - Long day

Day 22 Maintenance
181.2 lbs
TL: 27.8 lbs
FMW: -.8lbs

It seems staying out late agrees with my weight. McDonald's does not agree with my system though. I've been so sick this morning. But it could have to do with the lack of sleep, the massive head ache, and the major to do list awaiting me.

I had eggs and a little bit of chocolate granola. I washed it down with fresh, raw milk! MMMMMM! I didn't eat lunch until pretty late. I had the left over chicken stir fry. Then I spent the rest of the afternoon making individual pizza crusts for Eythan's sleep over. I HAD to take a nap around 3 though. I was feeling so sick from lack of it. I left the house around 6 to go to an all nighter for girl scouts. I pigged out! I had yummy, yummy for my tummy pimento cheese. I hadn't had that in so long I ate an entire sandwich. Another mom had made oatmeal cranberry cookies that were to die for. I probably had 5 over the course of the night. I also drank lemonade and sweet tea. I didn't get to bed until around 1:30 or 2.

So why was I up so late the night before?  I can't figure out how to add it to my blog, but I was recording!  Yes!  I finally got to record a song.  It isn't completely done but it's enough.  It was an awesome experience.  Hopefully with more to follow.

Friday, April 16, 2010

Day 67 - In the wake of little chocolate donuts

Day 21 Maintenance
182.0 lbs
TL: 27.0 lbs
FMW: 0 lbs

Either I'm really lucky or my metabolism has changed. I lost .4 lbs even after the little chocolate donuts. This is too good to be true! And we all know what that really means. But it seems in this case it might be. Here's the deal though. Remember when I was on the rag last time? Dr. Simmons said that I shouldn't have been hungry but I was. So most people gain weight before and on their period. I lost weight right before to the point I was even lower than my HCG weight and I've maintained beautifully even eating the crap I've been eating. I think I'm just weird.

So I had chocolate granola for breakfast. Much, MUCH better than chocolate donuts! I'm serious! Then we went to Maggie Moo's for free ice cream on tax day. Well, THIS Maggie moos' didn't do it so it was a wasted trip. I had promised the kids if they finished their homework I would take them and now there was no free ice cream. So we wound up eating lunch at McDonald’s. I HATE McDonald’s, but I did it for the kids. I would have been happy to never put another piece of crap hamburger from McDonald’s in my mouth again. I literally thing this stuff is poison. But I took one for the kids and poisoned myself with a burger. Then, at dinner, I had half a peanut butter and jelly sandwich before I jetted out the door to work on a special project. If I can figure out how to show you on here I will. Otherwise I'll just tell you tomorrow. I didn't get back until 2 am so well see if I can figure it out!

Wednesday, April 14, 2010

Day 66 - I got to get it together

Day 20 Maintenance
182.4 lbs
TL: 26.6 lbs
FMW: +.4lbs

Things are really ok weight wise.  I'm not proud of how I'm eating though.

I had little chocolate donuts for breakfast. heard right.  Little chocolate donuts.  I ate some leftover chicken for lunch and then some cheese in the afternoo.  I made chicken stirfry for dinner and I did eat it with rice this time.  I also made some granola bars for dessert. 

I really need to get this under control though.  It gets so hard at the end of a pay period.  Oh well.  Tomorrow is another day.

Day 65 - Huh?!

Day 19 Maintenance
181.8 lbs
TL: 27.2 lbs
FMW: -.2 lbs

LOL! I lost!

I had rice with butter, milk and sugar for breakfast. I had to dip into my dooms day stash for lunch because my bread wasn't thawed out from the freezer and SOMEONE dripped the peanut butter so we would only have jelly sandwiches anyway. We had corned beef hash and green beans. I felt pretty sick after that. I started a pear buckle in the crock pot after lunch to have with Anne at dinner. She made us Chicken and rice casserole with rolls and salad. YUM! I had two rolls...I shouldn't have. I had lemonade. I shouldn't have. I had Pear buckle and vanilla ice cream.....I shouldn't have. At some point this badness is going to catch up with me...I just know it.

Tuesday, April 13, 2010

Day 64 - Another Bad Day

Day 18 Maintenance
182.0 lbs
TL: 27 lbs
FMW: 0 lbs

No change. I'm down with that. I had a horrible eating day yesterday. I did bad. I'm also know...STARTING. This is good because it will give me a good two weeks on HCG before I have the dreaded TOM.

I really pushed it today. I had chocolate chip cookies for breakfast and left over pizza for lunch. I didn't have much and added a couple pieces of cheese for snack later on. We had a girl scout project in the evening where the girls made dinner and served us. I had barbeque baked beans....from a can, fruit salad, and a sloppy joe on WHITE bread. White bread from the store. Nutrition less, preservative and additive filled, fluffy, succulent, velvet white bread. was so good. Then I had two desserts. TWO! I had a coconutty, chocolaty, caramely, yummy thing and something called a banana split cake. And I washed it down with Caedon's left over Sunkist.......mmmmmm....caffeine.....

I am terrified of the scales tomorrow.

Sunday, April 11, 2010

Day 63 - Test Complete

Day 17 Maintenance 182.0
TL: 27 lbs
FMW: 0 lbs

Well, I did it. I tried to think of the one thing I would love to have more than anything else. If I was going to indulge, It was going to be good, really good. I thought of Ben and Jerry Ice cream. Phish food to be exact. It's chocolate ice cream with little chocolate chips in the shape of fish, with marshmallow and caramel swirls. I think I gained the pound just thinking about it. I also thought of Karen's experience with movie popcorn the other day and the pain she was in from have synthetic food. B&J ice cream is full of synthetic ingredients so I thought some more. I thought of cheesecake, cookies, carrot cake, tiramisu, brownies but none of them hit the spot. The one thing I could think of too indulge in were the homemade granola bars I made the other day. So I got all ready to go to the store to get the chocolate chips to make them and I got a phone call. It was our friend’s daughter. "Emily? I'll be at your house in 5 minutes. I have the cookie dough your husband ordered." My evening had just changed! When I got the cookies I read the ingredients and the only unnatural thing in the cookies was some partially hydrogenated oil in one of the kinds of chocolate chips. And what was I just going to buy? So, over the course of the evening I ate 12 cookies in various stages of cookedness and two glasses of milk. Horrible dinner, I know, but they were sooooo gooood! The result was a one pound gain even though I mowed the lawn yesterday and hardly ate anything else. Maybe I went a little overboard. 12 cookies? But the obvious outcome here is that OCCSIONAL means occasional, and MODERATION means moderation. I'm still in the safe zone, but a 1 pound gain is still serious.

So back to the grind. I had two fried eggs for breakfast, left over succotash for lunch and personal homemade pizza for dinner. Of course Jon made cookies. I can't remember how many I ate. I know it was accompanied by a glass of milk and I also had sweet tea for dinner.

I've really fallen off the wagon. I have a serious sugar addiction. Alcoholics can't go to bars. I can't have cookie dough in the freezer. I am resolved to be a better example of HCG dieting......starting tomorrow. There are still cookies on the counter and milk in the fridge.

Day 62 - Testing the waters.

Day 16 Maintenance
181.0 lbs
TL: 28lbs
FMW: -1lbs

I'm so excited! Not that I lost another .2 lbs and I'm lower than even on the HCG now, but that I'm eating normally and my weight is steadily going down! I'm only making very minor changes in my diet. I'm skipping on a lot of carbs but eating enough fiber to keep the plumbing running smoothly. Of course there are the bigger changes, changes I needed and wanted to change anyway. I'm not eating out, eating sweets like crazy, or drinking soda. But we know those things are B-A-D anyway. You know, I'm really considering eating some ice cream tonight. Hold on before you judge me! Dr. Simmons says you can indulge occasionally and it won't affect your weight as much as before HCG. I'm really excited to see the outcome of an indulgence. I let you know if I did the deed tomorrow. It will be my little secret until then.

I had two eggs and apple juice for breakfast. Then I went out and mowed the yard. I had a late lunch of left over spaghetti sauce. There was very little left. I spent the rest of the night doing my taxes and watching episodes of X files and Torchwood.

Friday, April 9, 2010

Day 61 - Metabolism....changing.....habits....changing....

Day 15 Maintenance
181.2 lbs
TL: 27.8lbs
FMW: - .8lbs

Are you kidding? Another loss? I'll take it. I really believe that perhaps my metabolism is changing like Dr. Simmons suggests. It's not that I ate a bunch of bad food yesterday, but I ate more than normal. I ate to the point of stuffing myself. Of course certain behaviors have changed too. I don't drink soda anymore. I haven’t had that for 59 days. I haven't asked Jon to go get me a pint of ice cream for 59 days. I also didn't eat lunch yesterday because I wasn't hungry. Used too, I would eat because it was time to eat. Karen is right. This is the best behavior modification program out there. It's modifying my behavior.....and I grew up Baptist!

I had a pita with honey and butter for breakfast and an early dinner of pasta sauce and mozzarella. When I say pasta sauce, we're not talking marinara. It has hamburger, kielbasa, mushrooms, broccoli, carrots, and of course tomato. It is really, really good.

The kids and Jon left me alone this weekend. I’m really craving sweets tonight. I think it has to do with not having to share. I always want the good stuff when I know I won’t have to share. Hopefully I make it through the weekend without caving. Or maybe I will on purpose!

Day 60 - Carb heavy day

Day 14 Maintenance
181.4 lbs
TL: 27.6lbs.
FMW: -.4 lbs

WOO! HOO! I'm under! And I'm eating carbs! I think this has a lot to do with my little release yesterday though. I'm going to continue eating how I'm eating. Whole grains, fruits, veggies and as close to free range organic meat and eggs as I can afford. I'll just omit as much carbs and sugar as possible without dipping into the rest of the families meat and veggie allotment.

Well today would be like two months since I started this journey. 60 days. I still have 27 lbs under my belt.....or should I say out of my belt. On any other diet you are supposed to loose a pound or two a week. Even at two pounds a week I would only possibly be at a 20 pound loss AND I would still need to be working out....which isn't going to happen. We've decided to start a little early on the next round because of some Boy Scout camping trips and family obligations that would be hard to navigate on this diet. We are starting May 1st. That leaves me 22 days of maintenance. I can do it!

I ate fairly normally today, like I did before the diet. I had rice with milk, butter, and sugar for breakfast. I wasn't hungry for lunch but later on I had some cheese (yes....I know). For dinner we had spaghetti. I just omitted the noodles, but the sauce was so good I had two helpings. I really shouldn't have. We are studying the Phoenicians in history right now so we made Phoenician pita as part of a project. We all had half a pita with butter and honey for dessert. MMMMM....pita.

Thursday, April 8, 2010

Day 59 - Carbs are good!

Day 13 Maintenance
186.2 lbs
TL: 26.4 lbs
FMW: +.6 lbs

Looks like carbs aren't the devil! I'm still taking it easy though. I could be eating a lot more than I am. I also haven't added sugar back in. I really don't want to though. I'm not craving that stuff anymore. It's like I kicked the habit.

I had eggs and orange slices for breakfast and the kids’ leftover eggs and oranges for lunch. I also had a slice of cheese later....because I finally pooped! Wow! What a difference a couple days of fiber will do for you! For dinner I finally made the succotash (potatoes, onion, bell pepper, and kielbasa). I ate mostly the meat and veggies with some potato.

I'm still nervous about eating the carbs, but so far it doesn't seem to be too bad.

Wednesday, April 7, 2010

Day 58 - Sufferin' Succotash!

Day 12 Maintenance
182.6 lbs
TL: 26.4 lbs
FMW: + .6lbs

Still safe. The carbs didn't cause a catastrophic gain. I actually lost almost a pound, .8lbs to be exact. When I weighed I hadn't gone #2 for two days so I guess the tea is going to be a staple in my diet for a while. (Aren't you just getting tired about hearing about my bathroom issues?!) But I did go a little later on.

I had yogurt with strawberry preserves for breakfast and made the kids toast. For lunch I had homemade Ramen and some edemmome. I LOVE edemmome. For dinner the plan was to have succotash. Instead I went to the emergency room to have my finger tip sewn back on. A couple of weeks ago I bought a mandolin, not the musical instrument, a slicer. It's like a cheese grater but on and angle and it has one blade with attachments to make french fries. We'll the kids put the finger guard somewhere and I thought to myself, "I don't need a stinking finger guard. I'm way smart enough to use this thing without it." Apparently I wasn't. I basically sliced my fingerprint off my right ring finger. It was still barely attached. The doc said he couldn't sew it back on though because of the type of slice it was had cut all the blood vessels and that that piece of skin would die and I'd be left with a hole in my finger. He was just going to cut that part off but I was being such a baby he just left it on to fall off on its own. I think he realized just how deep a cut it was when he started messing with it and realized there were at least some nerves working!

So after our er visit all I wanted was an ice cream cone. I settled for a taco salad from Taco Bell, I ordered it without rice and I didn't eat the shell. I’m so good.

It's really hard to type.

Tuesday, April 6, 2010

Day 57 - Stupid mainenance

Day 12 Maintenance
183.4 lbs
TL: 25.6 lbs
FMW: +1.4 lbs

Gained a little. Still under. I'm totally not on maintenance today. It's too epxensive for me to be on maintenance. I went shopping on Thursday and everything I can eat...except for gone or has plans for another dish for the family. Also, I can't stand what it's doing to my bowels. I need fiber. And lets face it...I'm not going to get it from greens...those are even more expensive than meat and cheese AND I either don't like them or they don't digest and cause me pain. What's not expensive? Grains. I could afford the food on VLCD because I ate so little of it. So I had a homemade granola bar for breakfast and a small bowl of left over chicken and dumplings for lunch. For dinner, I had some chicken with miracle whip and cheese. Sort of like a sandwich without the bread. We'll see how much this affects my weight!

Sunday, April 4, 2010

Day 56 - Easter

Day 11 Maintenance
182.6 lbs
TL: 26.4 lbs
FMW: + .6 lbs
I lost .8 lbs yesterday, Cadbury egg and all. I feel much calmer now that I'm so close to my maintenance weight. We had to be at the park today at 7am and lead worship for a sunrise service. It was hard getting up. We didn't eat breakfast before we left because it was so early, but I did eat a healthy serving of Matzo bread and sparkling grape juice when we had communion. When we got back home I had two eggs with cheese and made everyone else oatmeal. We went by Spaghetti warehouse and picked up lunch. I had a meatball, a sausage, a ravioli, and a salad. That's all I had though for the rest of the day except a couple pieces of cheese around 8 because I got a little hungry.

Saturday, April 3, 2010

Day 55 - It's Easter. Give me a break.

Day 10 Maintenance TL: 25.6 lbs
FMW: +1.4 lbs

I didn't gain or loose. I didn't really have time to care about it today. I mowed and weedeated the lawn which is .25 acre and it was massively overgrown. We also went to lowes to look for parts for the cheese press I'm building. We had to meet the unmarked van that brought my order of free range, organic chicken, and we finished (almost) building the last box for my square foot gardens THEN, we had to get a music set together for tomorrow morning. Jon told me around 7 that we needed to lead 3 or 4 songs for a SUNRISE service at the park tomorrow. Busy day.

I had a fried egg and yogurt for breakfast. I had a late lunch of chicken, cheese, sour cream and salsa. I totally cheated on purpose and ate a Cadbury egg and a glass of milk. I also had a couple glasses of oj. If I suffer the consequences...oh well...I really don't care right now...and that's not a good place to be.

Friday, April 2, 2010

Day 54 - Still confused

Day 9 Maintenance
TL: 25.6 lbs
FMW: +1.4 lbs

Well...I'm down a pound. My mom's scales actually say I weigh more so I'll go with mine. When I weighed, I still hadn't had a good poo, but by the time breakfast rolled around I was visiting the little ladies room quite a bit. I took some herbal tea last night that was actually quite good. I got it because it was cheaper than the one I really wanted to get. I only wanted to get it because of the name: "Smooth Move Herbal Tea" LOl! Great name!

I had an egg and some HOMEMADE yogurt with berries and a touch of honey. Wow! Making yogurt is so easy and nutritious. It was the best yogurt I ever had. Once I'm past this stage of maintenance I'll put some of my homemade preserves in it and it will be even yummier!

I had the guts of a hamburger for lunch. Basically a patty and a few pickles. Then I made some chewy granola bars for the kids when they went with Mimi to the zoo. I was pretty depressed today and I wound up eating a square out of frustration. They're awesome! I'm not. I made meatloaf, mashed potatoes and peas for dinner. I had everything but the potatoes. I did better in the evening. Everyone ate ice cream and popcorn while we watched a movie. I had another cup of cleansing tea....didn't really compare. I really need to go to the bathroom. I woke up in pain several times last night and though I went a couple times today it isn't what I need. Next time I get to maintenance I'm going to take it easy on the cheese....definitely.

I was so ready for this stage, but now all I want to do is start back on the VLCD. In many ways it is much easier.

Day 53 - Steak.....(gulp)....Steak Day?

Day 8 Maintenance
TL: 24.6 lbs
FMW: +2.4lbs

I don't know what the heck happened.? Something just does not seem right though. I'm up 2.4 lbs. I didn't even go up that much in a day when I cheated on the VLCD. Three things are possible. One, when I went to weigh this morning, the battery was out of the scale and the back was missing. I'm thinking Caedon might have had something to do with that. So, depending on what he did to the scales they may or may not be accurate. My mom is bringing hers today, so I will weigh again in the morning. Two, I still haven't gone #2, not in any significant way anyway. Three, I actually gained 2.4 lbs. Today was a busy day and I made it out the door without eating so I decided to go ahead and do a steak day since I wouldn't be home until around dinner time anyway. One thing I noticed is that I'm not peeing like I usually do when I drink as much water as I'm drinking today. Curious.

I had my steak and tomato for dinner and went shopping with my mom. I'm pretty depressed.

Thursday, April 1, 2010

Day 52 - Beware! Rant on whole foods.

Day 7 Maintenance
182.0 lbs
27 lbs lost
0 from goal

So I'm one week into maintenance and I'm exactly where I was on my last HCG day! I'm freakin' out a little over how easy this is. I was so skeptical. I thought it would be a fight to keep the weight off and endless steak days. All I've done is just not eat the carbs that go with the meals I prepare and I've really, really cheated. Now, I'm still skeptical that when I add carbs back in if it will be this easy to keep the weight off! But that's me...the eternal skeptic.

I had two eggs (with butter and seasoning) with a tall glass of milk. My family has consumed almost a dozen eggs since yesterday. We like eggs...especially local free range eggs. If you have never tried free range eggs (actual free range eggs, not just the ones that say cage free, there is a HUGE difference...go to a farmer's market to get them), you have never had eggs. I've discovered something these past few months. We have really been working on the quality of food in our house. I'm used to buying and therefore my family is used to eating the cheapest brand. That doesn't mean is necessarily the worst quality, but most everything I was buying was highly, HIGHELY processed. You know what that means? All the nutrients have been almost destroyed. So when I started making my own bread from whole grain flour and buying raw milk and free range eggs I thought it would break the bank. It hasn't! Here is what I now believe. When you buy whole foods, though they may cost more initially, you just can't eat as much. Whole foods have retained their nutrients. Processed foods lack nutrients so your body keeps signaling you to eat more. It's not because your hungry, it's because your body still needs MORE. When you eat a sandwich with white bread, miracle whip, American cheese, and bologna, you finish it off and then a bag of chips. If you made the same size sandwich out of homemade bread (or fresh whole grain bread from a bakery), homemade miracle whip (which is really easy), cheddar cheese and leftover FREE RANGE chicken from the one you roasted in the crock pot last night, you would be hard pressed to finish it. I have seen this over and over with my kids. They can't even finish ONE free range egg, but they could eat two or three cage eggs. They can finish off two peanut butter and jelly sandwiches from store bought ingredients, but they can barely, and usually don't, finish off a sandwich made from homemade bread, homemade peanut butter, and home canned preserves. We used to go through a gallon of milk every other day. We're hard pressed to get through two gallons a week of raw milk. So I say all that to tell you. Two eggs filled me up this morning. Try whole (and happy) food. You will eat less.

For lunch I just had the kids leftover eggs from breakfast. I got busy with a project and forgot to put dinner on! So Jon picked up fajitas from our favorite restraunt on the way home (definitely not whole food!). I just had two pieces of chicken, lots of veggies, beans, sour cream, guacamole, salsa, and cheese dip. I didn't have tortillas, chips or rice. It was sooooo good. But my tummy didn't like it.